149!!!

Wow. This morning I woke up and weighed myself and I was at 149.2 pounds. I could not believe it.  That number shocked me.  The last time I checked I was at 152 so I know it is not beyond the possible but I just wasn't expecting it.  It has been more that 12 years since I have been even close to 149. I have been going between a size 10 and a size eight for about two weeks. The 10's are getting too big but I am not quite comfortable enough to be in 8's. Because that would be in the single digits and that is almost as mindblowing as wearing a size M vice a L. And the only way I have been able to really get through to myself that I am losing weight is to look at the size of my clothes.  Size 8!! But I have been feeling like I have been full with less food.  I am still using Lose It to track the calories and activity on my Ipod. I am starting P90X over again on Monday and working out at the gym at 3pm an hour before work ends 3 days a week. Then at 4pm on the other two days. I am excited to see what the next week brings.

My return to the gym

I finally returned to the gym yesterday and had a fabulous work out.  StairMaster at level 10 for 23 min then at level 13 for the last 7 min. I burned 340 calories and went 3 miles. Now why can't I run three miles? I am not ready to tackle running yet but hopefully this spring and summer I will be.  I want to enter a 5K run just to see if I can do it.  That is my goal for the end of the year. I had to do some readjustment of my goals recently. Especially after my setback. I think I put too much pressure on myself to get to a certain weight. I have been wary but thought I was ready to try it. And nope. I need to just go at my own pace. It really is not about that number on the scale but how you feel in your skin.  Hopefully that sinks into my brain. So tomorrow and then next week the full week of gym workouts and P90X do over. I do have to modify the workout so as that I am not too bored with it. 

Setback

I haven't been doing any exercise since the last post.  For me that is a long time. And of course it has to do with what is going on in my life.  Like I have said before I exercise and go to the gym as therapy.  I feel so much better and can function better.  But when I don't I go down hill fast.  I started the P90X program and stopped going to the gym after work.  I was still working out but it is strength training with weights and a lot of pull ups (which I still can't do).  I haven't got to the part yet that had cardio.  That is where I am getting muddled. I usually look forward all day to my afternoon workouts, even when I am sad.  Even when I go to the gym and cry on one of the machines, I feel better after my workouts.  But this week I was doing something new but also letting someone go.  Not the best position for me to be in and I got very depressed.  It came so fast I didn't have time to react.  Friday, Saturday and Sunday I spent in bed just crying and feeling awful. Not working out. This led to a 5 pound weight gain. Again I am an emotional eater but it is when I am bored at home that I have the most difficulty with.  So I have to get myself back on track and start back at the gym.  I will still continue P90X but with cardio added. I am disappointed in myself for my set back but they happen and I have to just move forward.  I was going to start today but I am amending that to take a little bit of time off. I have to pull myself together and start anew.  Just cardio for about a week to get my head straight.

Today is day 3

Oh my today is day three of P90X and I think I really like this program. Now don't get me wrong this is a difficult workout and it really has me pushing myself. But the exercises are not really difficult but there are strenuous. You do 25, 30, 40 reps of each exercise. That is a lot for me.  Some of the exercises look very basic but after 30 times you can get tired. But that is the point. It is funny that some of the exercise are geared towards men.  There is a exercise that has you going through the motions of throwing a ball, like in baseball.  Well I have never played baseball so this was completely foreign to me and I had to slow down the DVD to see what the hell I was suppose to do.  I got it after a time but it did make me laugh.  I have worked my back and shoulder more than ever in my life.  So today I am in pain. Yesterday was a lot of jumping and squats.  I really liked yesterdays routine.  Today is arms, shoulders and abs. Now the ab routine is extremely difficult. I cannot do as many as I would like, but that is the point to try more over time and give it your all. So today is going to be a painful day as well but do it I will.

P90X Day 1

Today is my first day starting the P90X program. I am totally nervous but I am excited about trying something new.  Now I am not the most athletic person but I know I what I am capable of.  Without a doubt I believe this will be a good thing for me.  I want to tone my body and gain more flexibility.  There is Yoga, Arms, Legs, Abs, shoulders, back and cardio exercises.  Lots of this stuff I haven’t even tried to work on.  Cardio for me has been the Stair-Master. I do Yoga also and Pilates.  But this is a whole different set of exercises.  I think this is going to be very difficult for me but I am completely with this program.  90 days is a timeframe that is good for me to complete this in.  Today is Jan 17 and I will be done April 17.  I will only be weighing myself once a week.  This will probably be extremely difficult to do but I can’t do it more than that because I don’t want to get upset with myself if I see the scale go in the wrong direction. Today I have the day off but I have to start at the same time of day so I am starting at 430 pm.  I will be doing these DVD’s 6 days a week and stretching on Sunday. I will be keeping track of my progress on my iPod. 

My gym?

I have been going to the gym across the street from where I work for about a year now.  I actually love going there because it is convenient and there are not alot of people there. One thing about me is that I actually prefer to workout alone.  I have gone to the gym with others but have always felt like I had to be more social than actually working out. So I like my gym. A good friend was telling about the gym he goes to and invited me to join him.  I was hesitant but have given it a second thought. He was telling me how great the place was and the positive thing that they had to offer. But is it enough to entice me to join a gym that is 20 minutes from my house? I don't know. I am still very self conscious about myself and am not too sure if I will feel comfortable there. But here is the best part....THEY HAVE A POOL!!!!! I love to swim. I am a native Southern Californian so the beach is my wonderland. But a substitute is a pool. I could swim everyday any day and be completely happy. Now I have to go check out this pool. This would be the one reason for me joining this gym. Without a doubt I would go all the time. Swimming is wonderful exercise and fun too. I would have to purchase a bathing suit but I can deal with that if I can get in the pool. Now does this mean I would abandon my gym across the street? I don't know. I think I will have to give the other a try and see how committed I will be with it and then decide. But I am excited to try it. Now if they only have babysitting it would be perfect. My friend said he has seen mother go in with kids but they don't work out with them. Of course this made me laugh...he is a soon-to be dad of twin girls so he will find out too soon all the joys of parenthood.

Lose It!

On Christmas day I started an app (Lose It!) on my iTouch that was to count calories.  The one thing that I never do. Never. I know I should be just never could bring myself to do. I have always been watching my fat intake.  I only let myself have no more than 15 grams of fat per meal. Usually breakfast is not anywhere close so usually between 30-40 grams a day. That has been easier for me to deal with. I hate counting calories. Well at least I did. Using this app has helped so much. And easy is always better right? Well for this it is. I input what I have and there are lists of items to go by. Brand items you find in the store or you can input your own.  It is so cool. Then you put in your exercise/activity. Wow this makes so many things easier. Now I have only lost 2 pounds since I started but that is ok. I am not about to get discouraged. I will keep doing what I have been I will just pay a little more attention to my calorie intake. And I have learned that that handful of this, a scoop of that or a bit of whatever adds up also.  It might only be a few calories but to see the numbers in black and white make the decisions a bit easier to make better ones. I have been trying new foods like ground turkey instead of ground beef in spaghetti or burgers. Low fat cheese, fat free beans, soy milk, almonds and baking chips (instead of peanut M&M's) and lots and lots of water. I am trying to switch to tea instead of coffee in the mornings. All these little things have a lower calorie count so every bit helps. I am learning to cook healthier meals that I have always loved but didn't make like stir fry. And most of all I am trying to insert fish into my daily or every other day meals.  Tuna and salmon are my favorites. I need to cut out sugar and eat more whole grains but I am working on that also. Lots of good stuff to try that I am very excited about.