P90X Day 1

Today is my first day starting the P90X program. I am totally nervous but I am excited about trying something new.  Now I am not the most athletic person but I know I what I am capable of.  Without a doubt I believe this will be a good thing for me.  I want to tone my body and gain more flexibility.  There is Yoga, Arms, Legs, Abs, shoulders, back and cardio exercises.  Lots of this stuff I haven’t even tried to work on.  Cardio for me has been the Stair-Master. I do Yoga also and Pilates.  But this is a whole different set of exercises.  I think this is going to be very difficult for me but I am completely with this program.  90 days is a timeframe that is good for me to complete this in.  Today is Jan 17 and I will be done April 17.  I will only be weighing myself once a week.  This will probably be extremely difficult to do but I can’t do it more than that because I don’t want to get upset with myself if I see the scale go in the wrong direction. Today I have the day off but I have to start at the same time of day so I am starting at 430 pm.  I will be doing these DVD’s 6 days a week and stretching on Sunday. I will be keeping track of my progress on my iPod. 

My gym?

I have been going to the gym across the street from where I work for about a year now.  I actually love going there because it is convenient and there are not alot of people there. One thing about me is that I actually prefer to workout alone.  I have gone to the gym with others but have always felt like I had to be more social than actually working out. So I like my gym. A good friend was telling about the gym he goes to and invited me to join him.  I was hesitant but have given it a second thought. He was telling me how great the place was and the positive thing that they had to offer. But is it enough to entice me to join a gym that is 20 minutes from my house? I don't know. I am still very self conscious about myself and am not too sure if I will feel comfortable there. But here is the best part....THEY HAVE A POOL!!!!! I love to swim. I am a native Southern Californian so the beach is my wonderland. But a substitute is a pool. I could swim everyday any day and be completely happy. Now I have to go check out this pool. This would be the one reason for me joining this gym. Without a doubt I would go all the time. Swimming is wonderful exercise and fun too. I would have to purchase a bathing suit but I can deal with that if I can get in the pool. Now does this mean I would abandon my gym across the street? I don't know. I think I will have to give the other a try and see how committed I will be with it and then decide. But I am excited to try it. Now if they only have babysitting it would be perfect. My friend said he has seen mother go in with kids but they don't work out with them. Of course this made me laugh...he is a soon-to be dad of twin girls so he will find out too soon all the joys of parenthood.

Lose It!

On Christmas day I started an app (Lose It!) on my iTouch that was to count calories.  The one thing that I never do. Never. I know I should be just never could bring myself to do. I have always been watching my fat intake.  I only let myself have no more than 15 grams of fat per meal. Usually breakfast is not anywhere close so usually between 30-40 grams a day. That has been easier for me to deal with. I hate counting calories. Well at least I did. Using this app has helped so much. And easy is always better right? Well for this it is. I input what I have and there are lists of items to go by. Brand items you find in the store or you can input your own.  It is so cool. Then you put in your exercise/activity. Wow this makes so many things easier. Now I have only lost 2 pounds since I started but that is ok. I am not about to get discouraged. I will keep doing what I have been I will just pay a little more attention to my calorie intake. And I have learned that that handful of this, a scoop of that or a bit of whatever adds up also.  It might only be a few calories but to see the numbers in black and white make the decisions a bit easier to make better ones. I have been trying new foods like ground turkey instead of ground beef in spaghetti or burgers. Low fat cheese, fat free beans, soy milk, almonds and baking chips (instead of peanut M&M's) and lots and lots of water. I am trying to switch to tea instead of coffee in the mornings. All these little things have a lower calorie count so every bit helps. I am learning to cook healthier meals that I have always loved but didn't make like stir fry. And most of all I am trying to insert fish into my daily or every other day meals.  Tuna and salmon are my favorites. I need to cut out sugar and eat more whole grains but I am working on that also. Lots of good stuff to try that I am very excited about.

New Goals

Since I have started on my weight loss journey I have to say that I have not had time specific goals in mind.  Nope. Not a specific weight I wanted to be in a specific time frame. Or what I wanted to be able to eat or what I wanted to be able to fit into.  I had things in mind but nothing ever concrete. I wanted to get down to 130 because it was where I started out 12 years ago when I lost 30 pounds after I went to Navy boot camp. I was in good shape but still I could have done alot more.  But I had  a baby and then got lazy. No more. Today I found myself looking into setting goals for myself that I really want to stick to.  So here goes. Since it is January 9th I want to set my first goal for my birthday on March 4, 2011 to be at 140 pounds. Then my next goal is April 4, 2011 to be at 130 pounds. Last to be at 120 pounds (my new weight loss goal) on May 4, 2011. Woohoo. That would be 33 pounds to go. 33 pounds in 4 months. I believe it to be a very sound plan. Now goals can change and if it does not seem like I can do it I can adjust my time line.  But I believe I can. I have a plan and I will stick to it.  Now I have to just pick out my final goal outfit to look forward to.

First week of the new year

Ok here I am after 4 days of my new routine on the StairMaster.  30 minutes at level 11 then 5 at level 15. Wow this has really helped me to stay focused on what I am doing and has kept my mind on track.  I am doing well in my nutrition also.  I have lost only 2 pounds this week but I take that.  I am down to 153. YAY!! I am not looking for a fast weight loss now. I really don't expect to lose alot in the next few months.  But I do notice my stomach getting tighter.  I might actually be able to see my abs soon! Watch out. I still have some weight to lose about 27 pounds. I know it is gonna be worth it. And I feel great after my workouts. This is great news and I look forward to tomorrow.  I just need to do something on the weekend to supplement my fitness.  Yoga does not do it. maybe Pilate's. I will try that this weekend.

Jan 03

First day back from the New Years Weekend and I am at the gym.  I haven't gone since Thursday.  This weekend was a disaster for my diet and exercise schedule.  I had zero motivation and my mood was very depressed.  I knew I should have worked out but I stayed in bed most of the time.  Nothing could bring me to get moving. I just wanted to sleep.  Ugh. I hate feeling like this and I need to stay motivated enough to go to the gym on the weekends.  It seems to me when I stay home I cannot find enough energy to get up and move.  I don't belong to a gym near my house. My gym is at work.  It is right across from work. I have no excuses at work.  I make it to the gym 5 days a week. Even when I get off early I go to the gym.  But if I take the day off or on the weekend I can put off the gym.  I have done Yoga and Pilate's at home and I do like them, but I am nowhere near consistent. I have a schedule for the weekend and it is Yoga/abs on Saturday and Yoga/Pilate's on Sunday. I think I have to add cardio to the morning to get me wanting to do either of these routines. It is just a matter of where and when.  If I don't exercise everyday my mood become depressed and I have zero motivation.  I hope I can find something to help me.  I just am not sure what will work.  Maybe it was just the holidays that were getting me down and then it affected my weekend activity level. I don't know. I just hope it is something I can fix. And soon.

It's a New Year and new beginning...

How did it get to be 2011 already? 12 months have passed and I have been glad to see them go.  What is this year going to be about? What is it going to bring to me? Where am I going to be in another 12 months? Am I going to be in a better place? Am I going to be happy? Am I going to be depressed? What is going to happen? None of these answers are easy. None of these are going to be found tonight or anytime soon. It might take till the end of the year before I do figure it out.  But I have found something. Hope. I want this year to be better. I want to have a better life. I want to make my life happy again. I want to be happy again. Do I think I can do it? How should I know, but I can try. I can try to make the happy come back. I can try to look at thing in a more positive way.  I can try to look past the negative thoughts and self-doubt. I want to see the months move by and be at peace with them.  ok. I can at least try. No promises or false hope or lies to myself. I can take it a little bit at a time. One day till the next.  This is my year. To find Monica. To get to know her again. Not for anyone but me. So my goals are to be physically fit, to eat healthy, to learn to cook better, to take a few chances and to try a few new things.